This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    

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A Servant's Song
The Journey of a Soul  

Jesus, love me, because only Your Love can make me worthy of Your Love
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I love you with your defects.
There is only one reason  why I hate your defects — because they keep Me  from loving you more.
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St.Theresa said once that little souls  

do not have great temptations.  The reason is that they do not try to 
overcome temptation by their own strength,

 because little souls have no trust 
in their own strength,  
they just run to the arms of their Father and their Mother,
and that is all — they are safe.  
Yes, little souls overcome temptation by ignoring it, 

because they have boundless trust in the Power of their Father.
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After a temptation, when the Enemy tries to renew it by suggesting that one gave one’s consent, again ,the little soul is back in its Father’s arms, and then it says to its Father,"Did I give my consent? I hope not, but it is very likely I did — I am so weak
— so now You must love me more because I need You more — and that is all there is to it.”

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If there is something the little soul should know about itself, who can teach it if not the Father?  

But if a soul, in this situation, begins to withdraw into itself, in the hopes of proving its innocence, that is the beginning of the end.
And God could very well permit a great temptation at this point, because such a soul, without realizing it, would be seeking its peace in its own "virtue."
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You do not understand My Love! No, you think of MyLove as the Love of a creature, waiting to receive something from you and thus to give you its love in return.

But My Love is not like that.

 Listen! You must understand Me!
 You must understand that this very
Love that sustains you in your being at this moment,
thiis Love that is the Cause of your very existence,
the Cause of everything that is yourself,
this Love, so intimate to
yourself, is waiting, at this very moment, to
embrace you, to give you, not your being, but
My Being, now.


Think of My Divine Impatience — think!
Realize that I cannot wait for the next moment to give Myself to you!

Is it not strange? I am so concerned
to give Myself to you in Love — and you who would want so much to be one with Me

are all withdrawn,
filled with misgivings,
wondering whether I love you or not!
0, if only you would see and understand, that your only misgivings should be about your disposition to receive My Love,

your capacity to understand the
depth and the power of My Love for you!


Each moment of your life is My offering you,
My fresh embrace. Therefore come to Me, come to Me as you are! 

Think of nothing else!
Only to give yourself to Me all, 
to receive Me, God, your God! Now!
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My trust in Your Mercy, Jesus, is my confidence in the
power of my will to do all the things that please you.
If I do not trust my will, I do not trust Your Mercy.
I can do all things in You because it is You Who strengthens me. 
Yet it is I who do those things, even as I am in You.
Therefore my one preoccupation
is to be in You, in Whom alone I will do all the things that will please the Father.
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The power of God does not ’overcome’ temptations —
they dissolve in His Love.
When do they dissolve?
When the soul has learned to receive His Love in the midst of the temptation —  when the soul has become
a little child who no longer looks for peace and security in its own strength.

Jesus loves children because He is the Truth, and only little children are true.
How are they true? In their simplicity which expects everything, yes, everything, from the Father.
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Interior silence is the most eloquent testimony of faith, of a faith that knows it is loved,  loved all the more in the realization of its corruption, in the realization that is has nothing for which it deserves to be loved,
a faith that knows that it is loved in the particular manifestation of His Love that God chooses to give it at this moment,
a faith that wants this and only this, that would chose nothing else, simply because it is God’s will to give it this now,
a faith that has no eyes for the future because it cannot bear to take its eyes from Jesus now, in a word,
a faith that receives everything from the Father, with Jesus, in Mary, because it expects everything from the Father.
Do you know why interior silence is the testimony of this faith? It is because that silence is the necessary effect of this faith.


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