This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    
   Eleventh Posting
A faith which sees each moment as the Father’s Gift

O Jesus, Beloved Truth, let the sword which is You, the Word, cut always deeper between my soul and my spirit, between what I am in myself and what I am in You, so that I may see myself as You see me—nothing, nothing, nothing outside of You!

Do you understand why I tell you “God alone is”?  It is not to deny the fact that you too exist.  I tell you this because you do not understand the nature and the limitations of your own existence.  You think that you exist in yourself — but the truth is that you exist only in Me.  Outside of Me you are nothing.

Contemplate that very, very much.  It is a truth which you can know even without faith, and yet how few, how very few of My children penetrate it!  To penetrate it is holiness, to penetrate that truth is to see everything as I see everything, in Myself.  Our whole purpose in permitting sin to come into the world was to teach you this truth through your own experience, to show you, by your own inclination to what is outside of me (all of which is evil), how much you depend on Us.  That was the preparation for My coming, My coming to redeem what was lost.  But I could only save those who knew they were lost without Me.

No, there is no goodness outside of God.  That was what I meant when I said to the woman in the Gospel, “Why do you call me good?  God alone is good.”  Was I denying the goodness of the creature?  No,  but I had to point out the inclination of men, an inclination not only to find goodness in the creature, but to find it outside of God.  If you will look into yourself you will discover that as soon as you begin to be attracted to any created good, you are moved to take delight in that creature outside of Me.  And all the purity I desire for you consists in this, that you may enjoy nothing outside of Me.  But in order to do that you must first see and acknowledge the depth of your impurity, you must see how much you are a slave to the habit of first finding and then delighting in good things outside of Me.

And now do you see?  Do you understand how it is impossible for Me to give Myself to you when your heart is drawn so much to good things outside of Me? To understand this, is the secret of learning to hate your own soul, to hate it in order to save it.  You must hate your own soul, the principle of life within yourself, because it is really a principle of death, constantly drawing you away from Me Who am Life.
Do you see that this is the very essence of sin, to desire a good outside of God?  I alone Am!  Whatever is outside of Me is nothingness, disorder and sin.  It seems to you that you sin when you desire some good with great intensity.  That is not Sin!  The very opposite: you could not desire good too much, because God is Good, and you cannot love God too much.  No! the sin is not in your intense desire for that good; the sin is in desiring it outside of Me, the sin is in the disorder of desiring without measure and limit something which is itself measured and limited.

It is so important for you to understand this. You must not try to become holy by destroying the life I gave you: you must not try to please Me by killing your capacity for love.  That is a sin against love, and against life — and therefore a sin against Me, God Who am Love and Life.  No! you must correct your understanding so that the infinite capacity I gave you to love may be directed to the One Infinite Being.  But so many of My children fail to understand that! So many of them try to please Me, Who am Love, by destroying love in themselves!

Knowing that nothing exists outside of Me, you can see that you too have no being except in Me, that your very being is to be in Me.  That is why I told you the Kingdom of Heaven is within you. But just as you think of My gifts as though they were a material object, so you think of My Existence as something material too, as though you had to go out and look for Me in a certain place.  No! you will never find Me that way.  You will find Me, not as something you did not possess, but in your realization that you already possess Me, that your being is in Me, in My Being, and that you are possessed by Me.

And now try to understand this too, that I, your God, in Whom you have your being, am that same Person Who desires endlessly to communicate Himself to you, not only by giving you your natural existence, but in giving you My very Life.  Yes, I communicate to you both your natural and your supernatural existence.  But there is this great difference in the communication.  I communicate both your natural existence and your natural operation without any disposition on your part to receive it.  In your natural life you exist and you act only because I love you.  But your supernatural life is different.  True, you exist supernaturally; you are born again to My Life, in baptism, only because I love you.  But you act supernaturally, not only because I love you, but because you love Me.  You cannot act supernaturally unless you love Me.  It is true, you cannot love Me unless I am loving you: but it is just as true that I cannot love you unless you are loving Me.

And therefore, since I am within you, learn to seek Me, not outside of yourself, but within yourself — but seek to possess Me by allowing Me to give Myself to you in love.  Sink into yourself to find Me, and then let Me love you.  Do not think you have to do something to persuade Me to love you.  I am waiting, waiting, always, to love you.  As soon as you want Me to love you, I am loving you—and you are loving Me.  Yes, I operate as quietly and mysteriously in your supernatural life as in your natural life.  Because I am so hidden, naturally it seems to you that you do the things you do of yourself — just as it seems you have your existence in yourself.  Yet it is I in Whom you have your being, and Who moves you to your every operation.  And likewise it is this same ‘I’ in Whom you have your supernatural life and being, and Who moves you to your acts of supernatural love in the same mysterious and hidden way.  But I give you this gift of My Love, by Which you are moved to love Me, only when you ask, as in My ordinary Providence.  I can of course do what I did to St. Paul.  I could move you to love me instantaneously, no matter what your previous disposition, but as I say, that is not My ordinary way, and it would be presumptuous to expect it.  No! I wait for you to ask — but what you are not aware of, is that your very asking is moved by My grace, by My Love.  I do not force you, I do not make Myself apparent, but all through the day I am trying to show You, in endless ways, how much I want to give Myself to you, and how much you need Me — so that you will ask Me spontaneously and naturally for all the things you need.  And then, even as you are asking Me, I am lovingly moving you to ask Me, hidden and delighted.
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The Perfection of Our Work
It is very easy for us to get preoccupied with the perfection of our work, with the perfection of the act or object produced — instead of with the Love of Jesus for Whom we do it. And we frustrate Him in this way, because what He needs is not our works, but our hearts. What He needs is to be permitted to pour Himself into our hearts — which alone can make our works perfect, i.e. pleasing to Him.
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It is our love of Jesus that permits Him to work in us, and it is His work in us that makes us humble. And to realize this, not in words, but in an unceasing act of love, is true humility
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It Is My Joy To Give Your Everything

Yes, it is My joy to give you everything you need, because it is by My gifts that I convince you how much I love you.  I know, far, far better than you, how much you need to be convinced that I love you: that is why I am so anxious to overwhelm you with My gifts.  But I cannot give you the things you need unless you ask.  Do you see now what I meant by My simple words in the Gospel, “Ask, and you shall receive!”?  It is truly as simple as that.  But in order to ask, two things are necessary: you must convinced of My great desire to give, and you must be convinced too of your great need to receive.

I tell you all this because it is important and necessary for you to understand it in order to grow in My Love.  You need so much encouragement, so much assurance that you are loved—and all the time I am waiting to give Myself to you.  You keep looking for some extraordinary sign, a sign that would be distinct from your very act of loving Me.  I want to give you My Love, and you want some extrinsic sign which, so you think, would move you to love Me.  What you do not understand is that the gift I give you in giving you My Love is your act of loving Me.  But you want some other gift.  It is as though the water should say to the fire:  “I am cold.  Now it is up to you to make me warm—while I remain cold!”  Try very hard to understand this.  It is so important for you to understand it—how important you will realize only after you have understood it.  It is the meaning of “My just man lives by faith,” the faith in My Love for him.  And I give him My Love because he believes I love him, that I am actually loving him in this very moment.  You must understand that the very effect of My Love, for which you are asking, is to cause you to be asking, that if you were not already loving Me, if you were not already trusting My Love for you, you would not be asking Me to love you.  And all that is the effect of My loving you, mysteriously, as I am hidden within you.

Yes, as soon as your disposition is to love Me, then I am loving you—as the water is becoming hot just as the fire is heating it—not afterwards.  But you expect Me to do something first—and then, as result of what I have done, you think you will of your own free will, begin to love Me.  But that is impossible, and even though I am God, I cannot do the impossible—not that I am limited, but what is impossible just cannot be done.

My beloved child, it is so important for you to understand this!  Because without understanding it you keep waiting and waiting for something to happen between us—which will never happen.  You keep waiting for Me to give you some extraordinary sign that I love you—and all the time the most perfect sign of My Love for you is Its effect—that you love Me.

Do you see, then, that as soon as you are loving Me, I am loving you?  When you ask Me to love you, then, you are already loving Me, and I am loving you.  If you were not loving Me, you would not be asking Me to love you.  And if I were not loving you, you would not be asking Me to love you.
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