This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    

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Posting Seventeen

   
THIRD STATION:  JESUS FALLS FOR THE FIRST TIME
 
(Genuflect, saying:  "We adore, Thee, O Christ, and we bless Thee because by Thy Holy Cross Thou hast redeemed the world."  Then kneel)
 
"As you see me falling, understand My falling as a falling with you as you fall, with you and in you.  Do you see how quickly I fell on My way?  That was to reassure you in your falls, to show you how much I understand your weaknesses, and how anxious I am to be with you in your failures, to convince you that we are falling together.  Yes, that is what happens when you fall:  I fall with you so that you may have My strength to rise with Me, so that we fall and rise together, I always with My Beloved.
 
“I permit you to fall only to make your love of Me pure, to teach you to love Me only because I am so Good, to teach you how much I love you no matter how weak and wretched you are in yourself. That is your most important lesson:  you have to know how much I love you in order to be able to love Me as I want to be loved. Do you understand this, that your love of Me is only the reality of your permitting Me to love you, of your letting Me love you by believing in My Love?  They are not two things, My loving you and your loving Me.  No!  The reality of My loving you, the reality of your receiving My Love, is that you are loving Me—just as the reality of the fire heating the water is in the water's becoming hot. It is so important for you to see this; it has so much to do with the purity of your love!  Yes, the purity of your love!  For your love is pure when it contains only what comes from Me, when you give Me only what I have given you. As soon as you try to love Me with a love that does not come from Me, your love becomes impure. Think here of the words sung by My most pure Mother: 'Henceforth all generations shall call me blessed: for He who is mighty hath done great things to me.'  What does she see in herself, she who is all pure?  She sees herself exactly as I see her; that is her purity. She sees herself entirely in Me, she sees everything in herself in Me, coming from Me even as she possesses it. When she loves Me, she knows that her love of Me is My Love of Myself, that she has nothing which she has not received from Me, that she glorifies Me just in this, that My Glory is known in her, by her.
 
"Therefore, think very much of this, that I ask you only to give Me what I have given you, to love Me with My Love; and realize, therefore, that the reason and purpose of everything you do is to allow me to act in you.  And the more you try to do this, the more you will believe in My Love for you—because you will have permitted Me to give it to you more.  You must use your freedom for this alone, to allow Me to act in you, to live in you. And the more you permit Me to love you, the more I will show you what you are in yourself, your utter misery without Me — not to reject you, but to draw you more and more closely to My Heart. It is My delight to see you trust Me more and more as you see more and more of your own misery.  It is My joy to give you this precious grace of boundless trust in My Love for you. That is how I sanctify you; that is how you become Me."
 
(And now say Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be to the Father, O Jesus, forgive us our sins, etc.  As you rise to walk to the next Station, say:  "Jesus, Mary, I love you!  Save souls!" three times, to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.) 
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FOURTH STATION:  JESUS MEETS HIS MOTHER
 
(Genuflect, saying:  "We adore, Thee, O Christ, and we bless Thee because by Thy Holy Cross Thou hast redeemed the world."  Then kneel)
 
"As I saw My Mother, I saw you, My beloved child, in her and she saw you in Me. That is Our Love for you.  Can you understand it a little?  Our Love for you is Our Love for one another. As we look at each other, We are thinking of you, loving you. Without saying a word, My Mother understands that I am being taken away from her so that she may love you, that she may love Me in you.  It is through her love of you, her seeing Me in you, that you become Me. That is the model of your love, to love others, not for what they are in themselves, but for what they are in Me, for what I made them to be, to love Me in them.
 
"Now, as you contemplate our meeting, do not think of it as our meeting by ourselves!  This is not the reality of Our Love.  It is you who are Our Love of One another; it is you we are meeting in One another.
 
"As you see your Mother's broken heart while she looks at Me, realize that her pity is for you, for Me in you, that she is sending Me to My death so that she can love you, that she wills to be separated from Me in order to love you.  You need so very much to understand your Mother's love, and to believe in it!  'They have made me the keeper of the vineyards; my vineyard I have not kept.'  I am her Vineyard Whom they took away from her. You are the vineyard she is keeping.
 
"But see!  She is not grieving for Me alone—because now she sees you going to your death; she sees you in Me, and Me in you. As she looks at Me, she knows it is you in Me whom she is sending to his death. See!  She is that Rachel, hers that voice of lamentation, of mourning and weeping, weeping for her children, and refusing to be comforted for them, because they are not.
 
"Can you see that it is only by her love of you that you are here with Me?  She whose life is to love Me wills to be separated from Me, Her Life, so that she may be able to love you. But do not try now, because you are too little to understand her love for you yet. You will have to grow in her, by learning to die with Me, in her, in order to understand her love.  It is enough, now, the little that you do understand."
 
(And now say Our Father, Hail Mary, Glory Be to the Father, O Jesus, forgive us our sins, etc.  As you rise to walk to the next Station, say:  "Jesus, Mary, I love you!  Save souls!" three times, to the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.)

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