YPosting Number Two

Look at Me
You keep looking into yourself to see if you have what you need to please Me — now happy because you think you have it — now sad because you think you don't.  But you do not understand Me — only what is from Me can please Me. Therefore, stop looking into yourself, and look at Me. As soon as you do that, I am pleased.

O Jesus, to be poor!
O Jesus, to be poor! Make me poor! Empty me of every attachment and desire outside of Your Heart, that I may, with You, receive everything from the Father, because then, like You, I will have nothing that I have not received, and know that I have received, know that I am receiving everything from Him. O Jesus, make my life an unceasing act of receiving everything, as it is an unceasing act of giving everything, of giving myself, to the Father with You, in Mary, by the Love of the Holy Spirit, consumed from moment to moment by that Love, Your Spirit, who alone makes me acceptable to the Father.

Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. (Matt 22:40)
Jesus, since You have asked me to love my neighbor as myself, I see that You want me to hate my neighbor as myself, as I hate myself.*  For I love myself in the hatred of everything in me that is not in You.  Otherwise, in loving my own soul, I should lose it; whereas in hating it, I am gaining it. And therefore, loving my neighbor as I love myself, I hate all in him that is not in You as I hate all in me that is not in You.
And is not this Your meaning when You tell us to cast the beam out of our own eye first? For so long as I do not see that everything that is in me that is not in You is evil, I am a hypocrite, using my self-righteous judgment of my neighbor to whiten the sepulcher of my own corruption. But when I have cast out this beam, I know how to heal my neighbor, that is, I heal him by charity unfeigned, your charity**, a charity which loves only what is in You and which, therefore, does not judge. For as I no longer judge myself, so I do not judge my neighbor. Neither do I fear that he may judge me. For since I no longer judge myself, in judging me he is judging Christ, and it is he, therefore, who should fear lest he be judged.

*If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife . . . yea and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. (Lk  14:26)
**.  . . love one another as I have loved you. (Jn 13:34)

Excessive Fear
When you are moved by excessive fear, the reason is that your peace depends not on My Will, but on some created good which threatens to be taken away from you, which you desire outside of Me, and which you would want under your own control, apart from Me.  Realize this as fast as you can, then come to Me and trust Me to take care of you, yes even to the point of protecting you against the evil consequences of your own sins — even to the point of turning them to your advantage.

A Sensitive Conscience
A sensitive conscience is very different from a sick conscience. A sensitive conscience says, "At that time I did this when I should have done that.“ Then the soul turns to Jesus, with sorrow for the offence, but with joy because He is so Good and Merciful. And then the soul suffers, but quietly and peacefully, knowing it is loved, yet joyfully suffering to pay the price for its offence — actually it is the process of regaining that conformity to God that was lost by the offence. And thus the soul makes a resolution to avoid this and every offence by the grace of God.
     But a disturbed conscience feels perpetually guilty and, paradoxically, perpetually innocent — because it never sees the objective thing it has done that is wrong. Such a soul is without joy, and with very little hope. It offends God constantly, without changing its habits very much. Of course, to the extent that this state is not subject to deliberation, and to the extent that it was brought on by weakness and ignorance, such a person is able to perform meritorious acts. But it remains true that he is greatly hindered, nevertheless, in his spiritual development, and that he is very much in need of help, But, nevertheless, it is always true that if he is faithful to the grace he receives, the very life of grace will tend to remove this impediment to grace.  
     A holy conscience is a delicate conscience, constantly judging what conforms or does not conform to God's will, enlightened by Jesus as it is moved more and more to console Him in His agony by receiving His Love, conforming itself more and more to God‘s will as it received His Love, from moment to moment.