This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.

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When God Shows His Displeasure of Us
At times it is necessary for Me to let you feel that there are defects hidden in your soul which displease Me greatly. At such times you will feel tempted to withdraw from Me because you will feel you are not pleasing Me. That is a temptation which you must resist by renewing your act of love and confidence in My Love. I do not show you My displeasure thus for you to love Me less, but in order to make it possible for you to love Me more. What could be more contrary to My intention than for you to withdraw from Me at such a time? That is what the devil would want, not I. But in order to move you to a deeper knowledge of yourself, I must show My displeasure. How else could I persuade you to change? But the right and rational response to My acting this way, far from withdrawing, is to unite yourself all the more closely with Me Who am the Truth – in order to know the truth which is hidden from you.  Where else could you hope to find it? Would you look for the truth outside of the Truth?
You must learn to understand that My displeasure with you is not a rejection, but an invitation.
You must learn that to know Me in this life, as in the next, you must know Me as I know Myself. I know Myself in Myself, in My Son, and therefore you must know Me in yourself in My Son. That is why My Son told you "The kingdom of Heaven is within you." And therefore, in order to know Me in this life, you must understand that the impurities which would come between us are dissolved at each moment in the Heart of My Son, in Mary. Whenever you have recourse to anything outside of My Son, even if it is to please Me, you are tearing yourself away from the knowledge and joy you have in Me, which you have only when you are in My Son.
Seek, therefore, to be dissolved with all your anxieties at each moment in order to be filled with Me, in order to receive everything from Me as My Son receives everything. "Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and its justice, and everything will be given to you."
Seek Me first in My Son. Do not seek anything before seeking Me in Him, and this at every moment. And then I will give you whatever is necessary to please Me. That is the justice of heaven, the justice which is the work of My Merciful Love, by which I make My child just by giving him what he needs to please Me.
My Son is the Way and He is the Life which is in Me. When you are in Him, therefore, you are in the true Way. But in that Way you are not merely on a path that leads to Me, you are already in the way who is one with Me and you are coming to Me only because you are in Me, and you can be in Me only by being in My Son, in His Mother, and your Mother.
Do you see what things are hidden beneath those words of My Son, "No one knows the Father except the Son, and those to whom the Son reveals Him".  You do not know Me by mere human words, "flesh and blood have not revealed Us to you," but you know Me as My Son knows Me, by being one substance with Me in Him.  And you are one with Him in your Mother. There you are being transformed into Him more and more as you are united with Him, and with Me in Him in the Love of the Holy Spirit. And you know Me, more and more, as He knows Me, by being one with Me is your very substance and being.
Therefore do not try to come to Me as though you were not already with Me. To come to Me is to become more intensely united with My Son, at each moment in the measure of My giving, the giving of My Paternal Love by which I will to see only My Son in you. Beg Me for the light to understand this great mystery always more. It is a most precious gift I give you, the gift of eternal life. My Son is that Gift, but what I am teaching you here is the wisdom by which you will know how to receive that Gift and in Him be with Me now and for all eternity.
0 Jesus, my miseries are as the depths of the sea.  Show me, O Jesus, through the depth of those miseries the depth of Your Love for me — teach me in Your Heart how as the depth of the sea is as nothing in the measure of Your Power, so the depth of my misery is as nothing in the measure of Your Love. Do not show me my misery and leave me, Jesus— but take me in Your arms where I may glorify the Power of Your Love, now and forever!
Mary and the Darkness of Faith
Only Mary has in herself the purity which can bear the darkness of faith, the darkness of separation from Him whom we love, who is our Life.  Only Mary can sustain us in that darkness, therefore.  Just as Mary alone is worthy to receive Jesus, so she alone can sustain this separation from Him. And therefore, as we are worthy to receive Jesus only as we are in Mary, so it is only in Mary that we have the strength and the fortitude to endure the necessary separation from Him in the hour of our Calvary. In Mary, too, we are not overwhelmed by the weaknesses of will and understanding which would separate us from Jesus — only in Mary does the Wisdom and Strength of Jesus become our wisdom and strength.
 I am the Immaculate Conception, I am your purity in Jesus  
I am the Immaculate Conception, I am your purity in Jesus, and the meaning of your weakness is only to glorify the Father in My Son by glorifying me, by loving the spotless purity the Father has given me to be the Mother of My Son, and your Mother.
0 Jesus, I adore Your wisdom in whom the Father decreed that I should know my own weakness and misery to such a point that, as my every breath draws only that sufficiency of air necessary at that moment for my body, so with each breath I am contented to receive only the strength necessary for my soul at that moment. And this I know, that Your Merciful Love provides that strength for Your miserable child — infallibly.
0 Jesus, that my vow of chastity may be, not a denial of love, but the most intimate union in Your Heart with all those the Father has given me to love in You and Mary forever!
The measure of my love is my trust of Jesus. When I am distressed and by my weakness I doubt His Love for me, to that degree I do not love Jesus, because I do not believe He will provide what I need — which is to be loved by Him, only that. Charity is love of friendship, and a friend knows that he will be taken care of by a friend — even when it seems that he is being neglected. Therefore, even when I have succumbed to temptation, I can say to the enemy "thou wouldst not have any power against me, unless it were given thee from above."  For even God's permission of my falls is the work of His Love. I know He lets me fall because it is His desire to bind me to Himself in the knowledge of what I am in myself, away from Him. But the more He lets me see what I am in myself, the more grace He gives me to cleave to Him.
To you it seems that you beg for My grace and that I turn a deaf ear to all your pleading. And then you do not know what to do. You do not know where to turn, where to go, and it seems that there is no hope. And in fact where could you go if not to Me? And when you come to Me I seem not to listen. And all this time I am leading you to see, in the Spirit of My Truth, that there is nothing in you that I want, nothing that has not come from Me. But how could I give Myself to you, how could you receive everything from the Father with Me, so long as you would use the very gifts We gave you to glorify, not the Father in Me, but yourself, to convince yourself that you were pleasing to Us by what came from yourself.
And so, little by little, the Love we gave you has been teaching you to see all Goodness in Us. You had to learn this because you can only love Me as I want you to love Me, to love the Father in Me, when you see everything good coming from the Father through Me. And you can see that everything good and lovable is from the Father only when you see how hateful everything in yourself is, everything outside of Me. And most of all you have had to learn how hateful is your desire to rejoice in yourself, how terrible is that hypocrisy by which you have been trying all your life to convince yourself, yourself and others, and even Me, the Truth of that lie of goodness in yourself — as though you would have Me betray the Father in order to glorify you!
And because your disposition was so perverse, and because I loved you so much, the only peace I could give you was the grace to seek in Me that peace which I was showing you., You could not find in yourself. That was how I kept drawing you to Myself. You were learning how to die — but until you had died, My Love had to hurt you in just that way, because I could only give Myself to you in the Truth, the Truth which is My very Being.
Yes, My Truth is truly a double-edged sword that finally destroys your soul, killing everything in you that is not in Me, a sword that cuts between what you are in yourself and what you are in Me, what I made you to be. And as you learn, in Me, to hate yourself more and more, you understand more and more that it is Myself that I love in you, only Myself. That is what true friendship, true love is, to love another as one loves oneself. And that is how I love you, as I love Myself.
And now you can understand that My Love of you, My Love of Myself in you, is inseparable from the hatred of everything in you that is not Myself. And in that you can understand too what it is that I have been waiting for in you — as I waited for Lazarus — I have been waiting for you to die. Yes, I have waited all these years for your realization and your acknowledgement that you are dead in yourself, that you have nothing, nothing nothing that you can give Me, nothing of yourself, nothing that you have not received —  most important of all, I wait for you to realize that I do not want anything from you that I have not given you, that I want nothing that has not come from Me, nothing that I have not given you. That is My Peace which I give to you, My Peace which I can only give to you when you are dead — because it is only when you are dead that you want My Peace, it is only when you have given up trying to please Me by a lie, by what you have, that you can truly please Me by what you let Me give you.
Do you see now how your death is the consummation of My Love in you? Do you see how it is a death to your death — which is the triumph of My Love?
You do not understand Me. You think I am saying the same thing over and over. That is why you do not listen to Me —  as you would not listen to anyone who kept repeating himself. And then you get preoccupied with the novelty of your own thoughts — because it is natural to avoid monotony.
Listen to Me, because this is a very important lesson for you —  I never repeat Myself. I am constantly communicating new things to you, and no moment in My communications is like the previous one. You think it  because until now you have never really listened. But listen now! Would a mere human artist produce his work, his masterpiece, by repeating endlessly what he had done before? You can see that nothing beautiful would ever be produced in that way. Then do you think that I, the Artist of artists, would do that in producing the greatest of all My masterpieces, a saint, that I would work by repeating Myself?
No! My communications to you produce the effect they signify. My speech alone is truly creative, and therefore it is always new. Ponder this truth so that you may become attentive and silent as I speak in your heart. It is always I who Speak — but what I say is always what you need to know and to be at the moment I speak it — and no two moments are the same.

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