This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
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On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
 
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
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On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
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 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
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If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.
    

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In Me you have the grace to overcome temptation.
But by habit, you are disposed to think that you do not have this power. And that in turn tempts you to feel at least relatively innocent in your sins. But in order to receive My grace, you must acknowledge that,you need it, that what you are tempted to do would be a sin.
Thus, it works in a circle: because when you do not believe that I love you, you do not possess My Strength, and then you are tempted to deny that which you cannot overcome by your own strength. Do you see?
it is your confidence in Me which gives you objectivity to see what you are in yourself. Therefore believe in My Love for you, and you will at once have the light to recognize sin for what it is, and the strength to overcome it in file Whom you trust.
Do you know how you can tell if you truly
trust in Me? When you really believe in My Love for you, you will come immediately to Me when you are tempted. But when you do not trust Me as you should, the temp­tation is an occasion for you to realize your own lack of virtue. And then, because in a hidden way what you
think is your confidence in Me is more your confidence in your own virtue (in which you do not have very much confidence) the temptation, instead of being an occasion to become stronger as you rely more on My Strength, throws you into a kind of panic, in which
you feel that you cannot rely on Me (because you are not good enough), and yet you cannot rely on yourself for the same reason.

And thus is it any wonder that you fail so often?
What is the remedy? It is very clear. You have to
become overwhelmed by the truth that you cannot rely on yourself, that all My Love and Strength are yours if you will only accept them. But in order to accept My Love and My Strength, truly, you must be convinced of this truth, that I do not love you, I do not give you My Strength, because you are good - but only because I am Good, and because you ask Me for what
you need.
Do you see? The cancer in your soul, the cause of all your misery, is that spiritual impurity
which impels you to think that I love you because you are good. That is the cause of your mistrust at times of temptation - because when you are tempted you are especially aware of your weakness - and your mistrust is what causes you to fall, Whereas it is My purpose to teach you, through your very temptation,
how untrusting you are.
Yes, when you do not trust Me, your misgiving at times of temptation causes you to hestitate and doubt - and then everything is lost. At such times promptness is more important than
anything else, promptness in coming to Me,
But you will not be prompt in coming to Me if you think you are not acceptable to Me. That is why you must meditate. You must fill your mind with the truth of My Goodness, of My Merciful Love. That Love is a fact, but you are not convinced of it. And you will inevitably act from that of which you are convinced. Therefore make the fact, the truth of My Merciful Love, a part of you - by pondering It, studying It, dwelling lovingly on It. There is no other solution to the problem of happiness. Your eternal salvation may very well depend on whether or not you listen to what I am telling you here.
Do you see how much you are
disposed to believe that I will not help you in
your necessities? That is why I frequently do not
help you - because you do not ask. To ask is to
ask with confidence. Do you see that you have not yet learned your lesson, the lesson that you must trust Me?

Ask yourself why you do not trust Me? You will discover that the reason is that you do not understand God, You will see that your disposition is to buy My Love by your works -
and thus when you feel that you do not have the price, everything goes to pieces. Do you remember how it was that I created the universe? "The earth was void and
empty, and darkness was upon the face of the deep; and the spirit of God moved over the waters." When you are void and empty and there is no light, only darkness, then My Spirit moves over the dark waters of your soul. Then I say "Let there be light" - and there is light.

Learn to be with Me in the emptiness of your misery, in the darkness of your ignorance, peacefully, wanting nothing else - and then you will hear My Voice in your soul, Yes, when you are empty and there is only darkness, that is the time My Spirit hovers over you: that is the time to await My Voice.
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I do not like you to get sad.
When you are sad, it is because you are not permitting Me to love you. I want My love to dissolve all your sadness, your anxieties and fears. Be on your guard, therefore, against sadness, and especially sadness because of the sins you have committed and your bad habits. That is the most dangerous kind of sadness - because it seems
to have a good motive. But it is not good. Nothing is good if it keeps you from coming to Me with complete confidence.
If you have sinned, what is it that you need more than My Love, and if you are weak,
what do you need more than My Strength. No! it is the Enemy who would destroy you by despair, and he begins by suggesting misgivings about your trust of Me.
But I want you to know that, not only am I satisfied, but that My joy is very great when you come to Me, when you say My Name with confidence, no matter what
your sins or your previous disposition. When you come to Me in that spirit, you are not making excuses in sin. The very contrary - you come to Me with confidence because you are overwhelmed by your sins, with no confidence in yourself - only in Me. Is it
conceivable that I would reject you then?
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Jesus, give me the purity of Your Mother, the desire to rejoice only in Your Goodness!
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You desire to be united with Me continuously, and I desire to give Myself to you - infinitely more than you could possibly conceive.
 Why, then, do you think you fail to be united with Me continuously as you would wish? I will tell you why. It is because when I show you a definite sign of your corruption you withdraw from Me in shame and confusion. And why do you do this? Because you had been thinking, before that, that your relation to Me had been based on something which you possessed in yourself, on your virtues and not Mine. That is why you get shocked and surprised when I show you what you are - and then you withdraw from Me.
You must learn, therefore, to live with your misery, to realize it is there all the time, and not be surprised when I show it to you.
But above everything else, you must come that much closer to Me, to love Me in the Truth of My Goodness. That is the purity of My Mother, which I would give to you, to see Goodness only in Me - and I use your impurity to make you pure.. You will be united with Me continuously, therefore, when you desire to see goodness only in Me.
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Now I want each moment to be exactly as though it were your last moment -
when everything will be past and when there will be nothing you can look for from
yourself, nothing to hope for except from Me.
At this very moment now, as at that, I am moved only by M y Love to love you and to give you what you need - which I do infallibly on My part. But if you are preoccupied with yourself, with the sins you have committed and your defects, your soul is not opened to what I would provide. Then, as I have explained to you, it is as though you were looking for some other mediator with the Father, some disposition in yourself
which would make you worthy to come to Me. But that is an illusion.
There is only your Mother. Behold
your Mother! She is truly your Mother, the Co-Principle with the Father by whom you are born again, another Myself, son of the same Father and of the same Mother, and in Whom you will have your life for all eternity, as I am always in My Father and always in My Mother.
So you are always in Them with Me, like Me receiving everything from the Father.

Therefore beware of seeking what you do not have. What you have is what you need because it is My gift to you. But seek only to be contented and grateful for what you have, and in that way you will be best disposed to the gift I would give you next - "As the
eye of the handmaid is on the mistress, as the eye of the servant is on the master."
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Have I not shown you again and again that you act best when you are uninvolved, when you are indifferent to the success or failure of what you undertake?
Yes, as soon as you get preoccupied with your success, even your natural powers become inhibited. But when you are indifferent, then you succeed. But you are not really indifferent - it only seems that way to you. Because then you want only what I want - your indifference is only to what is outside of My Will. And so it is natural that you should succeed. How could it be otherwise since you want only what I want and My Will is infallible?
Do you not see? You are My beloved little child, My little brother, and so I want you to be just like Me. And how am I? I am always in My Mother, in Her receiving everything from the Father - not that I depended or do depend on Her as I am God. For I am always in the Father. Mary is not My Mother in My Eternal
Generation - She is My Mother as the Word was made flesh. But She is your Mother as you are born again of water and the Holy Ghost. It is in Her, only in Her, that you are with Me, that you have your supernatural life. And what is your supernatural life? What could it be if it is not the life which the Father communicates to you, His life, even as He communicates It to Me, to Me in Himself, eternally, to you, with Me, in Mary, our Mother.
And so your happiness, your most perfect action, consists in being like Me, in having nothing which you have not received, in receiving everything from the Father.
Do not think that this means to be passive! Was I
passive? No! because the more you receive from the Father Who is the Beginning of all Power, the more forceful you will be, passive in relation to the Father, yes, but active in relation to all the
created things He gives you to do, as I was always active and most faithful. And the more you accept of the Father, the more passive you are in relation to Him, the more active you will be in relation to created things.
Not that I was passive in relation to the Father in My Divinity. No! because even though I receive all things from the Father, I receive
them eternally. But My whole nature as Man was to be passive and responsive to the Word of the Father, and that was the source of My perfect activity, and so it must be for you.
    
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