This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.

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Posting Number Three

A saint is one who possesses the infallible Goodness of God at every moment — because he does not want anything else.

You Must Not Force Your Love
You must not force your love, your love either of Myself or of your neighbor! Do you know why it is so wrong, and so displeasing to Me? It denies the Order of God Himself, the Order of the Blessed Trinity.  The Third Person of the Blessed Trinity, the Holy Spirit who is Love, doesn’t come forth from the Father before Me, who am Wisdom and Understanding.  No!  The Holy Spirit of Love proceeds from the Father, the Beginning, only through Me, only through the Understanding of the Father. And so it must be with you!  When you are moved by the true desire to love God more, therefore, turn your mind to contemplate in Me the Goodness of the Father.  When you see His Goodness in Me, you will be moved spontaneously to love Him, as I love Him, in the Holy Spirit.  When you contemplate the Father in Me, My Father becomes your Father, and thus He gives you everything as He gives Me everything. That is how you know His Goodness in Me, not as an abstract, sterile thought, but as receiving It.  And in this living knowledge of the Father’s Goodness, which you have in Me, you love the Father with Me in the Holy Spirit, even as you are loved by the Father.
Do you see, then, that love is an act of filial gratitude, the spontaneous reverberation of your soul to the Father's giving of Himself to you in Me? This is charity unfeigned, a charity which gives only what it knows it has received. You can see in this too why poverty is the first of the Beatitudes because it is only in your poverty, in the Knowledge that you have nothing in yourself, that you can receive the Kingdom of Heaven from the Father.

Now you will begin to see more and more how your supernatural life is in substance My Life, a Life which you receive totally from the Father.  Yes, you must use your reason very much, as I have told you so many tines, your reason enlightened by faith.  But you must not use your reason to take the place of Myself; you must use your reason to dispose yourself to receive, with Me and in Me, everything from the Father. The more perfectly you understand the things of God, the more will you be disposed to receive everything from the Father.  But when you are disposed to give what you have not received, you are trying to buy God's Love with your sins: "Whose hands come bearing gifts, their right hand is filled with sins."

Do you see how much I love you?
Do you see how much I love you? Do you see how I keep you by My side all day by the trials and temptations I send you.  Remember how easy it is for you to forget all about Me, to take yourself for granted as soon as I stop reminding you of your miseries. That is what you must understand — your need of temptation — then your temptations will purify you because you will depend totally on Me when I show you that there is nothing in yourself to depend on. Otherwise the very trials and temptations which are ordered to your perfection and purification will become an occasion of sin to you — you will feel abandoned by Me just when I am waiting to help you. Remember, in the Gospel, "O ye of little faith!"
When you have sinned, you feel that I do not love you. What you do not see is that what keeps Me from loving you, and you from believing in My Love, is not the sin, but the lie which denies the sin. When I permit you to commit the same sin repeatedly, the reason is that you have not acknowledged the cause of the sin. What is the cause of the sin?  Your desire to rejoice, not in Me, but in yourself.  Do not seek, therefore, to remove only the symptom, the sin itself that I use to humiliate you, but seek to remove the cause: seek to love Me always, and to hate everything in yourself which is not in Me.

Dark Night of the Soul
I cannot give you the grace to overcome a vice you do not acknowledge in yourself — even more, I cannot help you in your hypocrisy, when you would use what you think is your ‘spiritual life‘ to confirm yourself in your lies. I am Truth, and I love you, infinitely more than you could ever understand.  But My Love is Truth, and therefore it is impossible for Me to love a lie, and your whole life, almost, is a tissue of lies.  Like the sacrifices of the Jews, your sacrifices and what you consider your ‘supernatural’ works are an abomination to Me.  I have endured them until now only because I took pity on you in your ignorance.  I have tried to show you, by the sinful consequences of your own acts and desires, a little of your corruption.  In this way I have tried to penetrate through the thick armor of your self-justification, of your hypocrisy which would use even My Church and My Doctrine to draw souls to yourself instead of to Me.  But for all that I love you, and I will never forsake you. Only now you must understand that My Love is the loathing of all your unclean works, by which you seek to hide the truth from yourself.  Now I want you to love Me only in the silence of your soul, naked, without anything in yourself to reflect on. That is your death in Me. Wait now for My Resurrection, in the silence and darkness of your tomb.

Can Paul’s  words here possibly apply to a nice person like me?
Romans 3:9-12
For we have charged both Jews, and Greeks, that they are all under sin.
As it is written: There is not any man just.
There is none that understandeth, there is none that seeketh after God.
All have turned out of the way; they are become unprofitable together: there is none that doeth good, there is not so much as one.
Their throat is an open sepulchre; with their tongues they have dealt deceitfully. The venom of asps is under their lips. . . .
Destruction and misery in their ways:
And the way of peace they have not known:
There is no fear of God before their eyes.
These words of St. Paul mostly gathered
from the books of the Old Testament, that is to say, the Old Law, are written, not only for the Jews, but for all who would look for their justification in that Law. What does this mean? That Paul speaks here to all who would look for their happiness and peace in their fulfillment of the Law. And this is what he says:   Jews and Greeks, that is to say, whoever may read these words who is not in Christ, are under sin.  And not only those who are not in Christ but even those who are in Christ are not justified by the works which proceed from them alone. But they are justified by Christ, both as giving them that principle of grace by which they are able to do good works, and as making that principle active so that they actually do the good works of which that first grace made them capable.

But why does Paul make this point, do you think? If you would know the answer, then ask yourself this question:  "In what do I take my pride and my delight? Do I rejoice in Jesus Whose Spirit gives testimony in my soul that I do, through that Spirit, the works which please the Father? Or is my peace and my delight in the works which I perform by my own spirit?"  And if you say that you are unable to answer this question, then let me answer it for you. If you work by the Spirit of Jesus, then that same Spirit testifies in you that you are corrupt outside of Jesus, yes, even as you are in Him, even as the body, which is alive as it is united to the soul, is a corrupting corpse outside of that soul, and if it could speak this would be its testimony, that it has life only in virtue of the soul to which it is united.
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