This is why such a soul experiences excessive sadness and despair soon as signs of its own lack of integrity show up, with the consequence that it immediately feels unacceptable to God.  That’s why a sick soul is always hiding the truth from itself, the mechanism for which is endless self-justification. And why the correction of such a soul is always taken as rejection.
On Helping Souls That Are Being Tried
Do not lose your serenity on account of those who are being tried.  Pray for them; offer the sufferings of My Passion and some acts of self-denial, some self-imposed sufferings for them.”
Jesus to Sister Mary of the Holy Trinity
When souls are being tried, what they need from you is deeper love of Me—so that, through you, I may give them the grace they need.  So you see, you need your serenity even more at such times.  Do not try to buy peace for souls by losing your own!  Offer up your act of self-denial at such times, so that the soul who is suffering may get the grace to accept in joy what she cannot change—through your free offering of love.  You will see more and more how you are all instruments in the communication of My Love, for one another as for yourselves.  The more you will understand that, the more you will love one another.
On Feeling Unloved
Only the realization that I love you now, I, Jesus, who know all your misery, all your sins, the failure of your whole life, only the knowledge that I Who know how underserving you are of anyone‘s love, yet love you nevertheless with the Love of God Himself, can take away the pain and anxiety of feeling unloved by so many persons, and not undeservedly.
 The Age of St. Bernard’s is not like Ours.
St. Bernard, commenting on the Canticle (Song of Songs)

"Or perhaps, drawn away and seduced by his own concupiscence, he is still being dangerously tempted. Such a soul as this does not need a Bridegroom but a Physician, and for this reason receives, not kisses or caresses, surely, but only remedies for wounds in oil and ointments."

Yes, Bernard, in your time this was true — for the time had not yet come to force men willy-nilly from the highways and byways to the wedding feast. Men were still strong and able to overcome concupiscence with a help of the Physician less than the Kiss of His Mouth, less than the embrace of His intimacy. But now we are as children, impatient as we are weak, and needing, therefore, to be fondled and kissed by the Mother and her spouse, by Mary and Jesus.  0 Bernard, those of your age, who could help yourselves, needed the Physician only to supply the ointments of which you speak. But we need the Kiss of this Bridegroom who condescends to the weakness of little ones, like this little one who is too weak to help himself and therefore cries out:
"Let him kiss me with the kiss of his mouth, for thy breasts are better than wine.  For my justification now is not that I am healed by the ointments of the Physician, but that I am in the arms of His Mother, that it is her purity that makes me worthy of His embrace, not my virtue."
If Something Is Painful
It seems I always assume that if something is painful, it is evil and to be avoided. Then, when I am suffering, I begin to think, and I do not rest until I have discovered some truth which I hope will remove the pain. But I do not think I do this only because I want to avoid suffering: it is rather that I look upon suffering as a sign that I am wrong somehow, that God is displeased with me, and therefore something in me must be changed.

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Look at Me
You keep looking into yourself to see if you have what you need to please Me — now happy because you think you have it — now sad because you think you don't.  But you do not understand Me — only what is from Me can please Me. Therefore, stop looking into yourself, and look at Me. As soon as you do that, I am pleased.

O Jesus, to be poor!
O Jesus, to be poor! Make me poor! Empty me of every attachment and desire outside of Your Heart, that I may, with You, receive everything from the Father, because then, like You, I will have nothing that I have not received, and know that I have received, know that I am receiving everything from Him. O Jesus, make my life an unceasing act of receiving everything, as it is an unceasing act of giving everything, of giving myself, to the Father with You, in Mary, by the Love of the Holy Spirit, consumed from moment to moment by that Love, Your Spirit, who alone makes me acceptable to the Father.

Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. (Matt 22:40)
Jesus, since You have asked me to love my neighbor as myself, I see that You want me to hate my neighbor as myself, as I hate myself.*  For I love myself in the hatred of everything in me that is not in You.  Otherwise, in loving my own soul, I should lose it; whereas in hating it, I am gaining it. And therefore, loving my neighbor as I love myself, I hate all in him that is not in You as I hate all in me that is not in You.
And is not this Your meaning when You tell us to cast the beam out of our own eye first? For so long as I do not see that everything that is in me that is not in You is evil, I am a hypocrite, using my self-righteous judgment of my neighbor to whiten the sepulcher of my own corruption. But when I have cast out this beam, I know how to heal my neighbor, that is, I heal him by charity unfeigned, your charity**, a charity which loves only what is in You and which, therefore, does not judge. For as I no longer judge myself, so I do not judge my neighbor. Neither do I fear that he may judge me. For since I no longer judge myself, in judging me he is judging Christ, and it is he, therefore, who should fear lest he be judged.

*If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife . . . yea and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. (Lk  14:26)
**.  . . love one another as I have loved you. (Jn 13:34)

Excessive Fear
When you are moved by excessive fear, the reason is that your peace depends not on My Will, but on some created good which threatens to be taken away from you, which you desire outside of Me, and which you would want under your own control, apart from Me.  Realize this as fast as you can, then come to Me and trust Me to take care of you, yes even to the point of protecting you against the evil consequences of your own sins — even to the point of turning them to your advantage.

A Sensitive Conscience
A sensitive conscience is very different from a sick conscience. A sensitive conscience says, "At that time I did this when I should have done that.“ Then the soul turns to Jesus, with sorrow for the offence, but with joy because He is so Good and Merciful. And then the soul suffers, but quietly and peacefully, knowing it is loved, yet joyfully suffering to pay the price for its offence — actually it is the process of regaining that conformity to God that was lost by the offence. And thus the soul makes a resolution to avoid this and every offence by the grace of God.
     But a disturbed conscience feels perpetually guilty and, paradoxically, perpetually innocent — because it never sees the objective thing it has done that is wrong. Such a soul is without joy, and with very little hope. It offends God constantly, without changing its habits very much. Of course, to the extent that this state is not subject to deliberation, and to the extent that it was brought on by weakness and ignorance, such a person is able to perform meritorious acts. But it remains true that he is greatly hindered, nevertheless, in his spiritual development, and that he is very much in need of help, But, nevertheless, it is always true that if he is faithful to the grace he receives, the very life of grace will tend to remove this impediment to grace.  
     A holy conscience is a delicate conscience, constantly judging what conforms or does not conform to God's will, enlightened by Jesus as it is moved more and more to console Him in His agony by receiving His Love, conforming itself more and more to God‘s will as it received His Love, from moment to moment.

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